White Linen Photographers

I feel so very dramatic writing this post.  Especially considering this blog is not just mine, but hey…I am all for honesty.

I cannot speak for both of us, so I wont.  However, I might just a little.  ha.  These past few months have been a little bonkers.  Life seems to be moving at rapid speed and I am grasping onto those ‘what if’s’.  What if I feel like I missed too much?  What if I didnt teach my kids enough?  What if I spend too many hours on the computer?  Thats the short list, the long list would take days to write out.  Drama.  So, a few months back I was thinking of people who I would like to spend my days like…people who just seem to love every minute of everything and I reached out to many friends.  I am so thankful for their feedback and love…seriously.  It felt good to say I didnt have it figured out.  I struggle.  I feel overwhelmed, stressed, confused.  Then I fell upon Tara Whitney’s blog.  The woman who I was SURE had it all together…only to find out, she was feeling much the same.

Now don’t get me wrong, I have a great life.  I have fabulous kids.  My husband is wonderful to me, I mean…the guy cooks, cleans…listens to me whine.  So why am I just not feelin’ it?

Then I woke up and thought.  Am I spending my time the way I want to?  Quick answer.  NO.  So, I zipped over to see how Tara was making out and came across her more recent post.  You can find it here.  She did it.  So, I figure I can to.  Yes this totally makes me feel like that random internet stalker…but I dont care.  Who knows if anyone will even take the time to read this…I mean really?  I am rambling.  I have suddenly made this blog my personal diary.  ha.  Sorry Mish.  hehe.  So, now I type this while kicking myself.  I know its all there but I am doing NOTHING with it.  Just nestling back into my ways and knowing full well that I will be feeling much the same two months down the road.  So, here it is, its time to put me first.  And I am demanding the same of my lovely business partner…(She doesnt even know it yet and is only finding out while she proofs this).  Its time to step back and fall back in love with our lives.  Be the Mommy’s at the park who are present.  Take time to read a book (I have been trying for a month…and I am still only 2 chapters in…sigh).  Heck I am going to make a list of the things I want to do and then…really do them.

Now, dont panic.  We are beyond excited about the fabulous weddings we have ahead of us this year.  On top of that, we have some rockin’ sessions that we cannot wait for, especially now that the sun is shining.  We are just going to be taking a wee step back to spend time with the kids, the husbands, ourselves.  Maybe have a lunch together that doesnt include a business meeting!  We are still here, still working.  I am just going to be hiding out a little more and hopefully when I am fully back and out of hiding…I am going to feel a whole lot better.  I have to say, this past week I have spent far less time worrying about things like facebook and far more time having fun with the little ones.  I already feel so much better about my days.  Yay!

Speaking of feeling better.  These make me smile.  They were taken right outside our house, just as she is.  In one of her favorite new outfits, while playing mama to her baby.  They were set to be test shots as my camera just returned from receiving some love…and then voila…that 10 minutes turned into this.  They were edited a little outside our usual…but really were just left to be as they are.  Hard to believe this is my baby who hated the camera.  She will be FOUR next month.  Ouch.

enjoy.

brooke + mish

Easy to see where she gets her hair.  hehehe.  Making a point of getting a photo of Isla just like the image on the right.  Yup, thats her mama.